two very different fields
two very different people
the engineer, rooted in reality
the artist, constantly dreaming past it
the square, trapped in its constraints
the circle, adapting and changing
my dad's a software engineer
my mom's an artist
i'm blessed and cursed to be them both
my parents almost never got along while i was growing up
to make them get along i had to speak both languages
i found the magic in the middle
in the spaces in between
games
films
media art
sometimes, i feel as if i've been cursed to also find a computer science man like my mom
one that will never fully understand me
one that mansplains me like he did to her
saying i'm not good enough
that i'm not built out to be an engineer
that i dream too big
that i'll never succeed in this world
that i need to be more constrained
that i need to fit in a square
i know i can't just be a square
or just be a circle
but sometimes it feels wrong to not pick one of them
“the answer must be in the attempt” —celine