i sat at the entrance to hell, staring at the trees. they tilted skyward, narrowly avoiding their fate. i didn't want to enter without stalling for a bit longer.
i saw my friends over the years mercifully walk in, unaware of what was past the edge. others screamed and cried, then eventually accepted their fate. i would hear the occasional voice shout back at me, telling me they're fine, that it really isn't not that bad, that i should join them.
i've been told that in hell, you can never quite clench your thirst. it's hard to breathe. hard to stay afloat. every human emotion becomes a math equation with the highest possible solution.
what i've been up to
i finally finished editing my cmu graduation video!
i moved to phoenix and it was a really rough first few weeks. it was the first time i ever experienced a cockroach infestation (and hopefully the last). i finally understood why 'debugging' is called what it is. luckily i was pretty victorious after many late nights of reddit roach extermination rabbitholes
i attended siggraph and it was the best conference i ever attended. i got to hear from the kung fu panda 4 team about their art direction, saw the behind the scenes compositing shots of dune 2, get two really cute walking teapots from pixar, and heard about the incredible sphere concert that was produced by moment factory. i absolutely adored my experience and would like to go back every year. it really is a very special place
i started grad school at arizona state and it feels really strange. as expected, asu is the complete opposite of cmu. it's always sunny, barely rains, people are social, and people think i'm an international chinese student. it feels nothing like undergrad and i realize how little i touched grass talking to the people here and it sometimes feel like a punch in the face. i feel like it's going to take a bit for it to feel like home but i love the work done here, phoenix in general, and the resources available. it's thrilling getting to experience a different side of the world, and i know that this part of my life will be very important
whenever friends talk to me they inquire about my decision. ‘did you not consider other schools?’ i know that their concerns are from a good place but it’s kind of tiring having to explain myself every time. in the creative field, prestige means nothing. it’s what’s produced that matters. asu has the resources to be the creative i want to be and i’m excited for this new chapter
I love this line: “in the creative field, prestige means nothing. it’s what’s produced that matters. asu has the resources to be the creative i want to be and i’m excited for this new chapter.”
Excited for your next chapter, Nancy!
cant wait to see the ASU related or inspired projects you will create!