i'm so scared that one day i'll lose the fire
when everyone around me has lost theirs
i have to burn brighter
burn harder
in hopes that one day
i'll set everything astir
and we light up confidently
together
into the night.
i haven't send an update in awhile. i'm doing well.
this past month has been crazy.
last weekend i helped at mehran's steakhouse.
it was one of the craziest weekends i've ever had, and one of the most memorable ever.
chopping onions, mincing garlic, plating cakes, making meatballs... running up and down the lengths of manhattan. seeing all the friends come together and make the steakhouse happen for one night.
i tried my best to document the experience and interview people using the interview skills i had just learned a week prior and the lav mics I had just gotten two days before the event.
a week before the event my advisor taught me how to film interviews. i practiced by asking people what they thought about the men/women on campus. it was hilarious and fun, and shattered my fear of stopping random strangers on the street, i will start to do it more.
this semester, i'm operating as a one person army researching, writing, filming, and editing content for the past month in my independent study for my final capstone about CMU history. its been so much work. more work than i've ever had to handle, but i absolutely love every moment of it. going to the archives, talking to old professors, sharing all the weird facts i've excavated.
i've also been making art with code. polishing up my math skills to draw cooler and cooler curves. it's been challenging, but fun.
i learned to bind books. i've made a pamphlet, a glued book, and am now learning how to long stitch a book. the form factor of a book has helped me better appreciate word processors, fonts, and understand how information has altered its form factor over the years. it's eye opening how must touching paper changes how i think about information.
it's weird to tell people i love school now. it's weird because the way i bent school to my will is not even remotely the same experience anymore. i'm so lucky.
i love every moment of it.